[ Terry looks down at the floor for a second while adjusting the towel on his head, thinking of what to say. At a human equivalent, it's a little like picking apart what you did twenty years ago and trying to explain the reasoning behind what happened back then. But of course, Kido wanting to know things is totally justified and he'll tell her everything she wants to know now. Which is why he thinks back on what he was so bent on not letting Kido know. There were a few things...
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Oh, right. He looks back up to meet Kido's eyes. ]
I think you heard this from my Shadow already, but what he said about that night was true. I was taking on a coin challenge with Mondo, we got badly poisoned by the waters, but then I found out you and Rei hadn't moved from the same place in a long time, so I was worried. Mondo insisted that we go, so I tried to speed through the entire thing, but you two were already gone by the time I pulled both of you out of the building. Mondo couldn't make it either.
[ He was also pretty close to dying himself too, but. Details. ]
... Just bringing that incident up back then made me feel like I was going to hurl. It was pretty bad. I wanted to avoid it... it felt like it was the greatest shame of my life. I thought to myself, "what good is power if I couldn't save three people important to me, despite being regularly told that I could save a bunch of people during the war if I participated?". You were going through your own grievances too and I didn't want to add to that. You three got brought back to life somehow. That was all that mattered to me back then.
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Oh, right. He looks back up to meet Kido's eyes. ]
I think you heard this from my Shadow already, but what he said about that night was true. I was taking on a coin challenge with Mondo, we got badly poisoned by the waters, but then I found out you and Rei hadn't moved from the same place in a long time, so I was worried. Mondo insisted that we go, so I tried to speed through the entire thing, but you two were already gone by the time I pulled both of you out of the building. Mondo couldn't make it either.
[ He was also pretty close to dying himself too, but. Details. ]
... Just bringing that incident up back then made me feel like I was going to hurl. It was pretty bad. I wanted to avoid it... it felt like it was the greatest shame of my life. I thought to myself, "what good is power if I couldn't save three people important to me, despite being regularly told that I could save a bunch of people during the war if I participated?". You were going through your own grievances too and I didn't want to add to that. You three got brought back to life somehow. That was all that mattered to me back then.