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[ Terry feels so tired all of a sudden, but it has nothing to do with Kido, or their environment. After he let all those words out into the air, it feels as if the words cut off whatever strings held him up. He just wants to lie down or something, but it's not something he can just... do right now. It would probably alarm Kido if he fell all of a sudden, so he'll just. Do his best not to.

Well. Terry also hesitates a little, because it's not really... stuff he wants others to know, but. It's fine. Whatever. ]

I had a fight with Mondo last month. It got really bad. It felt like I had... bipolar disorder? Or something. It's weird because I never experienced this kind of stuff before coming to Hirajiro. I don't have a condition that usually makes me like that. I was healthy all around before coming here. That kind of stuff just happens at random times... I can't predict it, even though I tried so hard to try to find a pattern.

[ You know, despite his 0 to 100 real quick episodes, he can be... normal. Sorta. He appreciates Kido's hand over his though, even if there's a tired sigh. ]

I tried all that I could, but I feel like I still hit a dead end. I tried to think of all kinds of ways I could get better, but it's not working out. I've been working really hard to earn money for the house and all the other stuff so that I could forget about my problems, even if just an hour... 30 minutes. 10 minutes. Just some sort of temporary relief. It's kinda pathetic, but it really drives me to work hard, so that I can feel good about myself, even for a minute.

... I'd do a lot to get back the kind of life I had before, but it's not as simple as just returning to where I came from.

[ .........oh. Something dawns on Kido in the middle of all of that, and she closes her eyes for a moment, not to tune Terry out but to berate herself on something really really stupid. ]

Tomorrow, come with me to the hospital. I shouldn't have told you to stay away from it... Sometimes people crack because they're under a lot of stress, and you've been through a lot. We can talk to somebody about this. Somebody can help.

... Like a therapist?

[ Do they even have therapists in Hirajiro?? Terry doesn't look like he's gonna fight Kido's suggestion though. ]

Yeah, like a therapist. You'll go with me?

[ Who knows if they have a therapist... But she thinks it would be a good idea, anyways, because sometimes mental disorders are late onset? And considering everything everybody's gone through, it's a wonder that not all of them have gone crazy already. ]

... Yeah, I'll go. Though, I kinda wish they'd be a Persona user, because just talking about these kinds of things with anyone else who isn't used to weird stuff gets me weird looks and I might be classified as a crazy just for that alone.

[ Yeah, it's something, and Terry will definitely try if there is one. It's just.

gestures to hirajiro

gestures to everything in cetana

gestures to every demigod clone issue

yeah. ]

Terrence, the people around here see a cat walking on two legs or large dragons with flaming tails and they don't even bat an eye. Give them some credit for being used to weird stuff.

[ gestures to hirajiro

gestures to everything in cetana

all the townspeople are just "haha! cool, okay" and go on with their lives, Kido's sure these doctors have seen crazier shit than demigod clones ]

Is that what it is...? I thought they were all thinking we're just delusional people or LARPing.

[ lmao

anyway. ]

I'd just like it if I could be taken seriously, that's all...

[ There's some dedicated LARPers out there, if that's the case. ]

...I know. It's tough talking about this stuff unless it's to people who have the same problems, or they won't really get it... I wish Souji and Minato were as good as Rei says they are, because this seems like the sort of thing they should be "guiding" us on, doesn't it?

Well... [ Hm. ] I guess I can see why they could look like they have the answers to everything, but it's not like they're some omniscient gods, even if they're strong.

[ Terry has a rather low opinion on gods and such because of demigods and other similar beings doing whatever. ]

... Maybe they need a guide as much as we do sometimes.

[ The two of them wear fancy blue uniforms; that's got to count for something in terms of knowledge. ]

Not even answers, but... at least experience with this sort of thing. They've lived for so long, and could immediately tell when something was up with Sasuke. They have to know more than they're letting on, to be able to do that.

[ They don't even have to be omniscient! Just a little more open. More info-dumpy like Akira is, and not fearmongering like Minato is. ]

...Though, yeah, I kind of worry about them too. A little.

From what I understand, they've been living in the train for so long, unable to even leave? I think... so they probably only know about Shadows and stuff by reading or something.

[ Shortly put, he has no idea either. ]

...Do you think we should take them to the hospital too?

[ Nobody can live in a confined space for that long and not be crazy. ]

... They seem fine though?

[ Even if Terry can very well understand how people can go crazy if they're kept in a confined place like that, since he has experience, he feels like Minato and Souji are pretty okay, aside from Minato's occasional bloodlust. ]

Compared to who? You?

[ Anybody would seem fine compared to Terry. That doesn't mean they're fine. ]

... Compared to normal human thresholds.

[ Kido... even Terry is aware that his standards are low for stuff like this, so he has to mention normal and human in the same sentence to make his point. ]

[ ...Kido sighs and sits back, bringing the plate up to balance on her knees again. ]

People seeming fine doesn't always mean they are. Sometimes, it's the most "fine" people who aren't.

[ But that's just her pessimism speaking, living with people who smile all the time so they can all live in this happy fantasy world where everything is okay and they're strong enough to stand on their own.

She gestures to the food. ]

It's good.

[ It's not like Kido is wrong, since Terry was like that for a while in Hirajiro. He looks down when Kido gestures to the food and smiles a little. ]

Thanks. I'm still not sure what your particular favorite food is, so.. I thought this would have been fine.

[ Sounds like something he could just pinpoint, but of course he doesn't. Idk what the answer would be, anyways, so I won't worry about that unless it becomes relevant. ]

Yeah, it's fine. I'd rather finish up whatever we have so there's no leftovers, than have you go out and get stuff for one specific dish.

[ It could be... but he doesn't. Yeah. He's an idiot. ]

Yeah, there's really no leftovers from what you cooked for the meeting either. It was so good that everyone finished everything. I want to cook like that too...

[ He'll probably get a cookbook tailored specifically to Japanese cuisine later... ]

I think it was less how good it was and more about how insatiable some people's appetites are...

[ Michi??? Kido just sort of assumes they're all like Rei, aka "all food is good food" ]

You just have to cook a lot and make it free, and people will enjoy it.

We all love free things.

[ As long as it benefits them anyway. ]

But I thought it was good! Really good! I wanna know how you did your seasoning.

[ Free things are inherently that much more delicious ]

Secret recipe. You can help me cook sometime, and I'll teach you.

Yeah, I can definitely help out.

[ He's pretty excited... and is looking forward to that day. :') Also, his mood seems to have gone up from just talking about mundane things like this. It's nice. ]

I'll learn a lot. Take good care of me, okay?

[ Kido laughs and pats him on the head ]

Yep. You're in good hands, so you're safe with me.

[ Terry ends up grinning after all, his current happiness multiplying by ten when Kido pats him on the head. ]

Do you want to go sleep on the sleeper sofa? Or here... I can wash the plate when you're done.

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