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[ He's finally resembling a human again, and after settling some urgent matters, he pinpoints where Kido is and is running at top speed to get to her, wherever she may be. It's around eight in the morning and it's only drizzling and most of the flooding is gone? He can think on that later, but right now, his priority is Kido.

He abruptly opens the door of wherever she is. He's so thankful he didn't get turned into a dog again on the way. ]

[ Kido had startled awake at night when the earthquake hit, but because it was so dark outside and there were no aftershocks, she waits until morning to see what happened, not believing her eyes as she stares out the window and so she heads all the way up to the roof to see what happened.

With her hood pulled over her head and the light rain still coming down, she almost thinks her eyes are playing tricks on her when she turns and sees who opened the door. She freezes like she sees a ghost, which wouldn't be too far off from what she'd been believing the past few days, but even seeing Terry right now, she doesn't believe it.

He looks different. It's the Original, is the kneejerk thought to that. She doesn't have anything on hand to stab him with. ]

[ The moment he confirms that it's Kido, he rushes in to hug her, even though he did see her in the past few days, but he was a dog... so... but he's here now in human form. If Kido doesn't sock him in the face on reflex, he'll hold her tightly in his hug. If she does, well... he'll catch the fist and stand right in front of her. ]

[ Yeah, so somebody rushing in towards that can't mean anything else but them coming in for the kill, so Kido's on the defensive immediately, hand up to retaliate on reflex, but she's too slow and her fist gets caught. This is where she'll get stabbed in the gut again, she thinks, squeezing her eyes shut tight so she doesn't have to see her own blood. ]

[ Surprise, Kido! You won't have to die today! When Terry sees Kido's eyes close tight after throwing the punch, he more or less thinks that's the kind of reaction he deserves, being able to finally meet after thousands of years, considering what he did to her before he was sent back to his world. With the fist he caught, he just holds it in his hand and pulls her into a hug with the other. ]

I'm sorry... I missed you so much.

[ She tenses up in the hug that takes her by surprise, but it still takes longer than usual to relax again, even as she sets her forehead down on Terry's shoulder, wanting to hug him back but she can't, she's still scared of getting her hopes up. ]

Is it really you? Terrence?

[ Whichever answer he gives, she's already on the verge of tears and she bets she'll be tipped over it, burying her face against Terry's shoulder like she did with Ami and also that dog. While Terry's shoulder isn't soft and fluffy, it's just as warm. ]

Yeah... it's me.

[ He shakily breathes out a breath he didn't know he was holding. In contrast, Kido is so cold, but he'll keep holding onto her. His hand that was to her back lightly pats the back of her head that's covered with the hood, lightly wet from the rain. ]

I'm sorry it took so long to see you again.

[ Yeah, the tears are coming but she makes no effort to stop them as she finally returns the hug, holding tight and muffling her voice against his shoulder. ]

What took you so long? I thought you were dead— I looked everywhere for you.

[ Jace had explained what happened, but she wants to hear it in Terry's own words. He went home and came back just like she did, but it wasn't like going to sleep and waking up again; Terry wasn't physically there anymore, because Kido was late to the dungeon and never checked the Velvet Room, but it's also been too long since then. ]

I'm... not sure what happened in the beginning. I remember finally accepting my Shadow, but I think I passed out then and woke up back home. I lived through the stupid war and came out as the only demigod left and time passed... I lost count after ten thousand years.

[ He sure experienced a bunch of Earth's bullshit during that time too, like shooting down an asteroid, a volcano exploding and killing almost everything on the planet, and a ton of other stuff. He's so glad he's here with Kido now and nothing else will make him think otherwise. ]

... Then I came back here. I woke up in the Velvet Room. I don't know how that happened either.

[ As much of a disaster that Hirajiro is, at least there's no war or asteroids or volcanoes, that's for sure. ]

The Velvet Room? Maybe one of the Attendants came and got you.

[ She thought before they couldn't enter the dungeons since they always refused to help out, but 45's an Attendant and she helped fight the boss, so who knows. ]

But ten thousand years...

[ She pulls away a little to look at Terry's face. No wonder Terry looks older. Having to deal with Earth's bs would age anybody. ]

You must have thought you'd never come back.

[ ~Who knows~ but maybe Minato went all jesus-mode again and saved Hirajiro from the flood. All that's left is Souji now.

Terry smiles a little, a little sad. ]

Yeah... I missed you a lot. There was so much I wanted to tell you, but I think I forgot most of them over the years. I'm sorry for worrying you. I... wanted to apologize for the longest time.

[ When Kido pulls away a little, he wipes at her tears with his thumb. ]

I broke a lot of promises. I did a lot of stupid things. I even... I... I was supposed to protect you, but you kept dying.

[ Yeah, that sure happened. He quietly breathes out, thinking back to what Minato said about people dying here. ]

Nekogami's still pissed off at me.

[ Which is understandable. ]

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[ With over ten thousand years, she doesn't doubt that there's a lot he wanted to tell her, but what she wanted to hear are all those things she had to hear from Terry's Shadow instead of himself. Nekogami might be pissed about all the killing, but Kido's reason for wanting to punch Terry in the face was for all those other reasons. Breaking promises, not telling her anything, not being here when she needed him. ]

I bet he is, after what happened... I still don't get a lot of what happened. You breaking promises, hiding secrets, being stupid, I know you have good reasons for doing all of that, so I won't be mad at you forever. I just want to know those reasons, so I can understand.

I'll tell you everything you want to know, but first, let's go inside.

[ It's a light rain, but it's still rain. Being wet doesn't feel all that great either, so Terry lets go of Kido, but stays close while leading her back into the building.

Once they go inside, Jace/Orien is there, holding up a big towel for each of them. Terry takes them and hands the other one to Kido. ]

[ A snake just being there with a towel is so weird... Everything surrounding Terry is weird, though, so she takes the towel to dry her face, and then take her hoodie off before heading downstairs, because it's been a month and she never learns that going out in the rain with just her hoodie and no umbrella means having to do laundry every single time.

There really is no private place to talk, so she tries to find that same classroom that they were in last time, to watch movies in. ]

[ Terry remembers this classroom in particular, because there were so many things going on at once. Anyway, he didn't get that drenched, so drying is easy. The towel rests on his head, his hair all ruffled and messy. Jace turns into a mini snake to go rest inside Terry's hoodie pocket. ]

One question at a time.

Alright.

[ She takes a seat on top of one of the desks, scooting back so she has the whole desk and Terry is forced to take the one across from her. ]

Then, tell me this: what the hell, Terrence?

[ Yeah... hard mode time. She's not going to just let him get away with a question-answer session. She wants him to decide what's most important. What he wants her to know the most. ]

[ Terry sits at the desk across from her. This is fine. That's not a question, Kido! He knows having attitude won't really be of any help here, so he tries to interpret that as best as he can. He's pretty sure she knows why he didn't accept his Shadow that easily, leading to everyone dying in there. Might as well start with hidden secrets. ]

... It was really hard telling people about my condition.

[ Was, because it's not that hard anymore. If he needs to say it, he'll say it. ]

Drinking blood just to live week after week, and then getting sick from it during my stay in Hirajiro before was something I didn't want anyone to know.

[ He did tell her about the condition, just really vaguely. Nothing about blood. He supposes that doesn't count anyway. ]

Back then, being looked at in fear was something I really hated. I couldn't stand it. I'm better about it now.

[ He glances at Kido. ]

... I remember the reason why I didn't want to tell you was that you scare easily. You passed out once when you saw that I was bleeding a lot from my ear. There were other situations too, but I couldn't imagine what your reaction would have been if I just straight up told you that I need to drink blood to live... I was scared. Thinking back on it now, it was... stupid of me, but I guess hindsight is always like that.

[ ... ]

For the record, I didn't kill anyone for their blood.

[ Well, this one's easy to understand, as there's no good connotation to blood sucking monsters. The thought of it still makes Kido feel sick, and it shows on her face, but it's more just anything about blood that makes her feel uneasy. She's had enough blood on her hands even before coming here, it's always associated with death and profound loss, and honestly the stuff's just gross. It's like Terry telling her he has to eat mud to survive; it's gross but she's accepted time and time again that Terry does weird things, so she'll get over it, eventually.

But her unease turns to guilt when he admits that the reason why he withheld that from her was because he was scared or scaring her, like it's for her sake just as much as it is his. There must have been countless of times she'd screamed at Terry and looked at him in fear— some of them were his fault, trying to get her to listen about some goat man or sneaking up on her with gag glasses— but there were other times where it was just her overreacting. Just a couple of minutes ago, when they met, the first thing Kido had done was be terrified of him. That must have felt horrible, and now she feels horrible about it. ]

...It's not stupid. I would have been scared. I still am, a little. But it's not like I'm scared of you; having to drink blood is just a gross concept. I can't imagine you'd enjoy it, anyways.

Mm... I don't like the taste of it, but it's something I've gotten used to.

[ He has to, or else he'd feel like throwing up every single time. ]

Anyway, my lifespan can only go up to 14 days. That's the full mark. Drinking blood doesn't extend it until I have less than 7 days. It's a pain, but again... it's something I got used to. It's just how I live.

[ He also hates vampire jokes. That much hasn't changed. ]

I usually request a blood pack to drink it from. I don't want to drink directly from people if I have to.

[ Over ten thousand years, and a blood pack every two weeks... Kido holds both her hands out, palms facing him in a generic gesture of "stop." Shut up Terry and stop talking. Don't make her think about him dringing directly from people. ]

Okay, you don't need to tell me all the details. I don't need to know stuff like that, just about it in general. What if something happened and you couldn't get a blood pack for two weeks? How am I supposed to help you then, if I don't know something basic like that?

[ He'd just kill an animal. Simple. Is that what he's gonna say though? He doesn't want to...

... ]

Sorry. You don't like hearing about it though, right? We can talk about something else instead...

[ And what if you're stuck in a cage held captive by your own self, huh? What then, Terrence?? ]

I don't like it, but that sort of stuff is still important to me. I need you to tell me things I should know, without worrying about whether it's something I want to hear or not. I can't help you if I don't know anything, and not being able to help when I'm more than capable of it is the worst feeling there is, more than any secrets you think are bad enough to hide.

[ Things like murder and blood drinking and all of that, eventually she'll get over it, because they're things that have happened and will happen, and she could never change that to begin with. But not helping when she can, and things falling apart because of that, she'll only ever carry forward the regret. She regrets being too small and weak to save her sister from the house fire. She regrets letting her guard down at the lake dungeon and getting Rei and herself killed when it was her one and only job to keep them hidden and safe. She regrets everything about Terry's dungeon, how much she was put through just to stand there the first time, and then the second, and the third but he wasn't even there anymore. She couldn't do anything. She can be the strongest and bravest person in the world, but unless she's allowed to get to know Terry, it's completely useless. ]

[ Terry looks down at the floor for a second while adjusting the towel on his head, thinking of what to say. At a human equivalent, it's a little like picking apart what you did twenty years ago and trying to explain the reasoning behind what happened back then. But of course, Kido wanting to know things is totally justified and he'll tell her everything she wants to know now. Which is why he thinks back on what he was so bent on not letting Kido know. There were a few things...

...

Oh, right. He looks back up to meet Kido's eyes. ]

I think you heard this from my Shadow already, but what he said about that night was true. I was taking on a coin challenge with Mondo, we got badly poisoned by the waters, but then I found out you and Rei hadn't moved from the same place in a long time, so I was worried. Mondo insisted that we go, so I tried to speed through the entire thing, but you two were already gone by the time I pulled both of you out of the building. Mondo couldn't make it either.

[ He was also pretty close to dying himself too, but. Details. ]

... Just bringing that incident up back then made me feel like I was going to hurl. It was pretty bad. I wanted to avoid it... it felt like it was the greatest shame of my life. I thought to myself, "what good is power if I couldn't save three people important to me, despite being regularly told that I could save a bunch of people during the war if I participated?". You were going through your own grievances too and I didn't want to add to that. You three got brought back to life somehow. That was all that mattered to me back then.

[ ...Yeah, it makes her stomach clench and Nekogami restless just thinking back to that time too, her mind muddling that fire with the one in her childhood, and both are rife with guilt and regret. But that's what she thought back when the Shadow told her too, that Terry just swallowed his feelings because he cared more about not making his friends more upset than they already are. ]

I don't know if you've already gotten over yourself, but I'll say it anyways: you didn't fail to save us. Us coming back, maybe it was only possible because you found us, otherwise those Shadows would have torn us apart, right? There'd be nothing left to go back to.

[ Somehow her arm and leg got reattached after her more recent death, but what if the bodies were completely destroyed, like on a molecular level or something? Minato had asked something about that once, whether Terry's immortality stands true if he were disintegrated entirely into subatomic particles. ]

Anyways, if I'm already grieving, you might as well tell everything to me all at once so I can get it over with without dragging things out. So you're not leaving this room until I get everything out of you, either. Let me be mad at you for a day or two, instead of forever. I can handle it, Terrence. And I won't hate you forever for it, because I know you have good reasons.

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