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Thanks.

[ She's careful not to put her hand right into the plate when she gets up, stretching her arms above her head before picking the plate up to eat. ]

I'm good. It's nice seeing everybody in one place, getting along with each other. Akira shared a lot of important things, and Sasuke and Red seem to be doing alright too, so I'd call it a successful meeting.

[ He smiles at that, because other than the house partying, it really was successful. They shared a lot of info, got to hang out, and maybe some people made new friends. And as for him, he got a learn a lot and he got to talk to others. It's been a nice day. ]

Yeah. Thanks for organizing it all, Kido. Couldn't have been possible without you.

[ He closes the closet, though he didn't pick out any clothes just yet. Instead, he sits by Kido's side on the floor with the plate of food between them.

If she doesn't start eating soon, he's gonna feed her. ]

Sure. This sort of thing is no big deal, and we'll have to call for meetings every now and again, so leave the organizing to me.

[ She holds the plate and fixes him with this Look. ]

So. Are you going to tell me what I'm doing here?

[ Sleeping in Terry's bedroom. Just like last time, Kido conveniently throws out the memory of the surrounding few minutes of fainting right out of her head so she doesn't have to recall and relive the trauma of bloody ears or melting faces. ]

You passed out and I figured you wouldn't want to be surrounded by everyone while knocked out, so... I moved you here.

[ Since his room has a sleeping bag and I'm assuming Kido and Rei still sleeps on the sleeper sofa in the living room. ]

[ Ugh, hearing that she'd passed out is really uncool, whether it's from exhaustion or simply being around so many people in one place, she can believe either of it. ]

Oh man... I hope that wasn't too much trouble.

[ But she'll settle back and eat her dinner now. Instead of, you know, going to the living room or her room to eat. ]

Not at all. It's fine... unless you don't like being in my room for some reason?

[ He doesn't feel dokis from having Kido in his room because they're living together and it's just one of those things that show that Terry has odd standards to begin with. ]

No, it's fine. It's empty, though, and it'll be more comfortable once it's filled up. Rimi is also pretty annoying. It's also in the corner of the house, so it's kind of inconvenient.

[ Being in his room is fine! The room itself just sort of sucks. ]

[ ...

Hm. ]

My old room didn't have much in it either, since I only used it as a place to store clothes and sleep in.

[ Here he is, wondering if that kind of life is bad... lol ]

[ ... ]

The park doesn't count as a room.

... I'm talking about when I lived with Jace. Why would I think of the park as my entire room?

[ That's gotta take some kind of ego... ]

[ He looks like he has that sort of ego ]

I don't know, but it'd make more sense than the room you had before. Didn't you stay there for a couple of years?

Where?

[ He sure lost track of that real quickly--he isn't sure whether she's talking about the bedroom in Jace's house or some... other rooms. ]

[ What other rooms did he have... ]

With Jace... Are you okay, Terrence?

Ah, yeah. Sorry... I spaced out for a moment there. But yeah, I stayed with Jace several years. When I was home, I was usually in the living room or the kitchen. Playing games, reading, taking care of cats... that kind of stuff.

[ Though despite all that he said, his mind doesn't seem like it's fully here. ]

That sounds like a nice life. It's mostly what I did too, just hanging out, making sure nobody gets into too much trouble... You miss it?

[ WHY DON'T YOU MISS JACE ENOUGH TO WANT TO GO HOME haki i'm so sad about jace ]

[ BECAUSE HIS WORLD SUCKS ASS AND HE WOULD RATHER MOVE JACE INTO HIRAJIRO INSTEAD... it's a love that's never meant to be..........

Terry ponders a little. ]

Yeah, I miss that life. It was fun. I could take it easy.

[ He still loves fighting though, as much to everybody's chagrin around him. He looks a little wistful as his eyes don't quite meet Kido's. ]

... I didn't really have to think about anything other than living and having fun.

[ I'm going to destroy Hirajiro so Terry has to go home to Jace, I'm going to blow up every other world but Terry's ]

...You're such a kid sometimes.

[ That's how life should be, just living and having fun. There was a time when Kido's was like that too, before things came crumbling down, and every time she tries to rebuild it, something happens. Sitting here in this house, next to Terry, there's that sense of foreboding again every time she gets her hopes up. Happiness is a ticking time bomb. ]

It's not really something we can afford here, though, is it? I mean... look at Sasuke. He was fine every time I talked with him before, living and... [ having fun? citation needed ] And then all that happened.

[ But that world is gonna blow up too, Card.......... I can't even make a "and there was only one" joke because then it would be 0. 8(

What Kido says brings Terry's mind smack back down to this scene instead of it gone elsewhere. Shadows. Right. He really needs to talk about that. He looks clearly uneasy as he thinks about it, thinking about how he should approach the topic. Kido told him to just tell her up front, and that's what he resolves to do, but... how?

...

He mulls over it for a few more seconds before opening his mouth. ]

Kido, I... I could probably be next.

[ ): I guess we'll all die ]

What

[ This dinner isn't going to get eaten; Kido sets the plate aside before she upsets it all over the floor, turning to face Terry fully. ]

No, you'll be fine. I asked Akira about it— I didn't name names or anything, but I'm sure you'll be fine.

[ If you're absolutely resolved to be a good person no matter what, it doesn't matter if your inner Shadow is an asshole!! or something like that. There might have been some wires crossed. ]

... Huh?

[ That comes as a surprise. Terry thought he was doomed for sure from how the Attendants put it. ]

What did Akira say?

[ You're fine, Terry! Everything will be fine. ]

He confirmed that Sasuke formed a Shadow because he had some parts of himself that he couldn't accept, but had to in order to fix them. But for people with parts of themselves that can't be fixed, he said something along the lines of being a good person despite those parts. If you don't give in, and focus on being a good person, then it'll be fine.

[ Your true self is shit. Why would you want to accept that? You shouldn't have to. It was something like that. ]

"Focusing on being a good person" sounds really vague though...

[ Does he need to rack up invisible karma points now? Is that how it is? It sounds so easy and yet, he feels... like there's something off. It's not like he thinks Akira nor Kido would lie to him, and maybe that's how it really works, but seeing the black wisps around Vassago back in July really... makes him wonder. Doubt plagues his mind. ]

But if it's really like that, then... I guess it'll be fine.

[ Being a good person means not getting Souji, Akira, and Rei drunk all within 24 hours of each other /: Maybe this is why Terry has such bad karma ]

It's not like there's a hard and fast rule to this sort of thing. I wouldn't think so, anyways. ...I guess I'm a bit shaken too, after seeing Sasuke's Shadow. If somebody with my face talked like that to me, I'd punch her face in right away.

[ Terry lets out a quiet laugh when hearing that. ]

Yeah... Guess I'm just tired of having the real possibilities of people having my face and talking like that. I was just thinking... of the chance that I encounter my own Shadow. It would be really hard to accept it. I don't think I can--I tried to think of so many ways, but it's not like I can half-ass it either, since it would know what I'm thinking. The Shadow fight with Sasuke really helped me see that. And it's just... I don't know...

[ ... ]

I also realized that while I'm here, I've been having occasional relapses that make me sometimes act like my original.

[ He closes his eyes. Terry can already feel the disgust creeping into his heart again--the repulsive things that makes him want to dig into his own chest and free himself of the feeling, but he can't. He needs to keep living. He doesn't want to leave anyone behind anymore. ]

I can't keep track of it. It just happens randomly. It happened a lot more when I had a kid's body too. It felt like something was eating away at my mind, I--

[ His voice starts getting more frantic the more he talks about it. Please snap him out of it, Kido. ]

[ You're relying on the wrong person, Haki. When people talk this much about themselves, the last thing Kido wants to do is snap them out of it before they can get everything off their chest. "Shh, it's okay, just forget about it" is what she wants to say, but she can't.

So she just sits there, reaches a hand over to touch her pinky with his, and lets him talk. ]

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